Fcuk..

Schools been done and dont really have anything to do, besides summer school. So i know pre-cal nxt year isnt going to be that easy. I ask my mom to find me some kind of tutoring, to help me prepare for school. But of course, being the fcuker that she is, she tells me to go to the library and study myself. I was like wtf is wrong with you. Big argument, and i dont even know why i live in this house. Please let me get the fcuk out of here. Who's in this house? Mom thats just an emotionless individual, stepdad that thinks hes the shit cause he's a cop, and a little stepbrother thats......pretty boss. I dont even care if i get in a good college or not, as long as im out of this house its all good.

Nigga Shit.

damn dude, i hella fail at this blogging thing. when was the last time i wrote something here? april 30th? nigga damn! would've been cool if i waited another 6days, hehe. but yeah, hellla bored. decided to sleep over a friends house. didnt even go to mills friday for the first time in like months ha. went to a friends house and chilled, then had to babysitt, then a movie! ;) hehe. but yeah been hellla bored now a days. need a job, fcuking permit, money, girl! haha lets not get carried away here. okayokay. finals have been starting, not that stressful tho. everything is not even border line, except bio. C- kinda scaredd. uhmm yeah hellla tireddd right now....OH yeah i was just informed like 15minutes ago about this person that had been lieing to me and others to make themself look like some innocent lil fcuker. i mean "how low can you go"? =) not cool, but yeah. okay. bye.

teacher:"put that cellphone away!"
classmate:"dont tell me what to do."
^^^HAHAHAHA

SICK.

today was the 3rd day i was a no show for school..got hella make up work to do, and not looking forward into doing it. yesterday i talked to this loser about how im horrible and its all my fault that we stopped talking n shit.....and got yelled at every minute. but yeahhh, guess i deserved it? hah. today i got an acupuncture, not the first time tho. last time i got it was like on saturday. i was actually more scared today than before, cause they said they were gunna stick more needles in this time. and i was like OH SHIT. then she says "prepare for the worst", lmao reminded me of somethanggg. but yeah, not that bad. ok im done, byebye.

First One?

First one? Many more to go...decided to start writing a blog after reading a friends. So i can finally stop writing to myself on my phone, in the draft section at night. Then fcuking keep re-reading it over and over again till i fall asleep. Then delete it first thing when i wake up for school. Sad? Yes i know. Okay down to business, not hearing her voice or reading anything she sends kills me. Been like that the past few days, getting worried? YES. Had the balls to chat online with her and ask whats been up lately. Got a response i didnt really want to hear. Wouldnt any decent person at least send one of those goodmorning txts, those hello I.M's, those 1 minute phone calls saying i miss you. So tired of waiting for her...I may be tripping but its who i am i guess. Im a tripper. Need to chill out, but its hard.

Nothing left to do but assume the worst.....wait.....then prepare for the worst....