SICK.

today was the 3rd day i was a no show for school..got hella make up work to do, and not looking forward into doing it. yesterday i talked to this loser about how im horrible and its all my fault that we stopped talking n shit.....and got yelled at every minute. but yeahhh, guess i deserved it? hah. today i got an acupuncture, not the first time tho. last time i got it was like on saturday. i was actually more scared today than before, cause they said they were gunna stick more needles in this time. and i was like OH SHIT. then she says "prepare for the worst", lmao reminded me of somethanggg. but yeah, not that bad. ok im done, byebye.

First One?

First one? Many more to go...decided to start writing a blog after reading a friends. So i can finally stop writing to myself on my phone, in the draft section at night. Then fcuking keep re-reading it over and over again till i fall asleep. Then delete it first thing when i wake up for school. Sad? Yes i know. Okay down to business, not hearing her voice or reading anything she sends kills me. Been like that the past few days, getting worried? YES. Had the balls to chat online with her and ask whats been up lately. Got a response i didnt really want to hear. Wouldnt any decent person at least send one of those goodmorning txts, those hello I.M's, those 1 minute phone calls saying i miss you. So tired of waiting for her...I may be tripping but its who i am i guess. Im a tripper. Need to chill out, but its hard.

Nothing left to do but assume the worst.....wait.....then prepare for the worst....